Emu-Stalgia

Someone once said that obtaining the best orgasm in the world, don't add up as the best feeling in the world, the universe - to those people that feeling is known as Nirvana. Where your mind is all at ease and you are at the top of everything - no worries, no bad karma. Well, I just found something better, its name is 'EMU-STALGIA'.

When you reach a state of EMU-STALGIA your body starts to overflow with energy, you might even get the shivers. All you can think of is to scream, but you can't get it out, because it isn't enough, a scream of joy will only do so little, so for a moment the only thing you can do is jump up and down waving your arms (like you don't care...). Now you may wonder how do thee reach this euphoric state of mind?
This is where the hard part starts, its very individual, and everything has to be set for this to happen, and you can't plan it, that will ruin the feeling and you will only feel "Fake-Stalgic". Which is like having sex with your girlfriend and screwing a whore, two whole different things, but in the same ballpark. The only way I can hope to explain how to be one of the select few to experience this, is to tell the tale of how it happened to me.

A long, long time ago in a gal.....err, in my room. I had an old playstation 1, this was one of my beloved belongings and its laser was running hot, providing me with audio-visual fun for endless hours. But a few years down the road, the unthinkable happened, I started to get busy doing other things, and eventually my electronic lover went missing. Back in those days I used to own and cherish a beautiful game called Xenogears, made by the geniuses at Squaresoft. The game is a top notch RPG (Role Playing Game), its so good that it resides up there with Final Fantasy VII and Chrono Trigger. I played this game for countless hours, living the story, dreaming about the characters and floating around to the incredible music. Its one my most favourite games, in fact to me its more than a game, a game is something you play and forget, Xenogears is something you experience, a ride you want to last forever.

Eventually I finished Xenogears, and it got laid away, while I was playing other games, like Final Fantasy VIII. A while after my PSX went missing, I got the nag to find it back, and once again enter the world of Xenogears. But it was nowhere to be found, its been missing for over four years now and still counting.
This meant that I couldn't play the game, I couldn't play it on my PS2 either, since my version of Xenogears was NTSC, and my PS2 PAL. With a sad look on my face I acknowledged the fact that I won't be able to play it, and the game itself went missing. Meanwhile I soothed myself by entering the world of Final Fantasy X (by now you've probably made the correct assumption that I have a great love for the FF series too).
Anyways, a few years ago I found a copy of Xenogears on the net, and tried it on two psx emulators, but I couldn't make it work, after all an emulator still is only a emulator and not the real thing, so not every game will work. Once again I had to realize I might not ever get another opportunity to explore the world of Xenogears.

That was until a few days ago, I got in a discussion with a friend about the wonderful games that Square made before, about how good those old classics were, and that Square's been losing grip on its once godlike games. I told him about my affection for Xenogears and my struggles with getting to play it again. He then mentioned this wonderful new emulator, making it possible to play all those old classics, being filled with the painful experience I had the last time I tried using an emulator, I was skeptical to the whole ordeal. But seeing hope that I might get to play Xenogears again, I gave it a shot, and boy am I glad I did it. It worked on the first try, and unleashed the EMU-STALGIA! I was totally overwhelmed by the nostalgic feeling combined with the amazing feeling of just playing the game again, and on top of that I screamed out my love for ePSXe, the emulator that made all this possible. I immediately started jumping around making weird noises, I didn't knew where to turn or what to do, completely controlled by this state of mind. After first shaking uncontrollably for a while, I managed to calm myself down enough to play a little while, until I got another fit, that continued for the rest of the day, if this isn't pure excitement I don't know what is.

I hope everyone of you get to experience EMU-STALGIA atleast once in your life, after reading this you all know how hard it is to achieve, and that its all about random occurences and chain of events. But if you have something lost in the past you were passionate about, a game, a song or something you can't find, start exploring every possible way to find it back, you just might be lucky enough to experience EMU-STALGIA. Most of you also would have noticed that Emu-Stalgic is a combination of the words Emulator and Nostalgic, I just don't find the usage of the word nostalgic justifiable to the feeling, because it is no way near the actual power that lies within the ecstatic universe of pure EMU-STALGIA!

But, now I got to hurry back to reality, I have to walk through a desert and reach Aveh before the end of the day, in my beautiful Gear, Weltall <3.


"Live life like its meant to be, naked in cyberspace."
-Øyvind.

Rocky: An inspirational epitome.

Last week I watched the first Rocky movie from 1976, the movie that launched a struggling 30-year old Sylvester Stallone into stardom. It changed his life and saved him from bankrupty, its been said that he only had 130 dollars on his bank account the day the green light for the Rocky project was given. But this movie is about much more than sending one individual into stardom. Its all about showing that everyone has a chance, that not everything is lost if you haven't had success right from the start. That if you keep on fighting, keep on believing in your talent, you might get there someday. The world is all in all based on random occurences, take a moment and think about your own life, and think about how it all fits together, how many times you've had a lucky bounce thats changed your life. You know, those job related things for example, where you just take a trip to the mall, and run into an old friend of yours, who happens to know of a guy who got a job opening. You get the job, works there for several years, and eventually bumps into your future wife on a business conference. Its all about these little things, those things that matter, its not about getting one big check, but the way you got there.

Now back to the movie, I'm sure most people have watched it or heard about it, but I'll include a brief summary. Its about a middleaged club fighter, who's struggled all his life, the only way for him to make living is to collect money from a loan shark, and winning underground boxing matches. Meanwhile the heavyweight champion of the world is planning to defend his title against the number 2 ranked fighter, but his opponent gets ill and have to withdraw. The fight is supposed to happen on the fourth of July in Philadelphia, our main guy Rocky Balboa's hometown. And not wanting to lose the publicity the Champion named Apollo Creed uses Rocky
as a way to boost the fight - "Apollo gives local fighter a shot at the title". Now he thinks this is gonna be a easy win. But Rocky sees this as an opportunity to redeem himself, to make his life mean something, he dedicates himself to do whatever it takes to 'go the distance', to survive all 15 rounds, no one has done that against the champ before. And in that way becoming a respected man, to have something to look back on.

This is the pivotal moment of the whole picture, in the end he goes the distance, but the match ends with Apollo retaining his title with two judges split and the third judge going in favor of Apollo, but the whole point is the last few seconds of the movie. Rocky doesn't care about if he has won or lost the match, the only thing he cares about is that he went the distance and screams out "ADRIAN ADRIAN I DID IT", Adrian being his girlfriend. Its hard to explain the feeling you get as you watch it, but after its done, you think you can do anything.
You want to do something, to finish a task you haven't finished before, or postponed, to show to yourself that you can do it, you just have to make up your mind and go through the hard work, and in the end come up on top.

The energy is unexplainable, in my world I had a big room that needed to be cleaned up, a really messed up one, which takes a lot of hours to clean up good. And not just throw some stuff out and there, but I have to sort all the items up and put in good places. This is something I've postponed for years, but after watching Rocky I felt really determined to do it, and started right away the next morning. I'm not finished yet, but often the hardest part is to start something, now all I have to do is finish the job.

Thank you, Rocky Balboa!

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This is my first attempt at a blog, and I'm excited to see how it goes. I'm not gonna promise anything concerning regular updates, but I will promise that its content will be filled with ramblings full of nonsense and offending material. Because all in all thats me. Hope you have a pleasant stay, and be sure to comment on my postings often. Oh, btw, to my English speaking visitors, I must warn you that not all of my posts will be in English, but I hope to write most of them in English (depending on what the content is and how lazy I am).